APR 2–8, 2018


April 2, 2018

Power outfit! Now with sandals (first of the season). I asked on Instagram if I should crop/hem  these Elizabeth Suzann florence pants in anticipation of summer, and the response was a resounding no! I'll keep them as is. I love to pair them with black tops for a monochrome jumpsuit-esque look. As someone who owns a black jumpsuit, I feel the top + pants gives a similar effect with less hassle.



April 3, 2018

This outfit feels very casual and breezy. I love my Everlane square tee so much and I love burgundy so much that I snapped up this striped version on Poshmark. Never thought of myself as a Stripes Person, but looking at my closet I'm noticing a bit of a trend. They seem to work as far as adding interest without too much visual noise.



April 4, 2018

The last time I wore this tan tee (Wednesday, February 14, 2018), I felt it was a little frumpy. Maybe it was how it was styled with the big cardigan, I'm not sure. But I feel the blousiness of the tee was balanced better this time with skinny jeans and a front tuck than it was fully tucked into wide leg jeans. This outfit made me feel very minimalist but with just enough flare. The back of the tee has this great slit cutout across the shoulders that you can't see here. It's not enough of a slit to be inappropriate, although I tend to throw a cardigan over it anyway because the office is so cold.




April 5, 2018

Work from home day! Is the chunky sweater front tuck too much? Might be a bit much. But I'm still loving this Lauren Manoogian sweater. It's a cotton/wool blend, which I've never tried before. Generally 100% cotton sweaters feel useless to me — not warm enough to bother wearing a sweater. But this is 80% cotton, 20% wool, and it's honestly the perfect spring weight. It was in the low to mid 60s, and I wore it without a jacket going outside to meet contractors and felt plenty warm but not overly warm. We keep the thermostat around 66 or 68 in the winter, so it's also nice for indoors. I had a tank top underneath.



April 6, 2018

Felt like changing it up with these chinos instead of jeans today. The chinos are a J. Crew relic of 6 years ago. More of a low to mid-rise so I like to wear tops that cover up the waist. Cuffing them makes them feel less stuffy and more springy. I like how the pants are fitted through the upper thigh but then get juuuust wide enough through the knee and calf. I like the lightweight twill as well, it's so unfussy. My ideal non-jean pant would be these legs but with a true high rise. Does this pant exist? I've yet to find it.


Friday night


April 6, 2018

I traded tops as the sun went down and pulled out this sweater AGAIN. Every time I gently fold it after use I think, bye bye til next year, and then it gets cold again. I can't quit you!



April 7, 2018

This looks is super simple and basic but works really well and makes me feel good. Just an old bracelet-length boatneck dolman sleeve tee, front tuck in skinny jeans, and black Nisolo boots. I got paint on it at the studio last time I wore it (you can see on my left sleeve in this photo if you squint). It's such a small paint mark, not really noticeable. I want to keep my clothes clean and in good condition, but do marks like this just add character?



I felt really good about this week of outfits. The weather was more spring-like which probably helped pull me out of winter closet complacency. I know we're all feeling tired of winter! Now this week it's cold AGAIN. I keep putting off a massive sweater cleaning because I keep pulling them out to wear. 

I'm still getting good use out of the splurgey Lauren Manoogian sweater. Hope you aren't tired of seeing it because I'm not tired of wearing it. Something silly that I really enjoy is the act of carefully folding it up to put it back in the drawer after I wear it. It makes such a satisfyingly weighty little soft brick of sweater. 

As I continue to hone in on what garments make me feel most myself, I'm having to reckon with some that might not suit me anymore. I remember buying them and being happy with them at the time, but they just don't mesh with my color palette or general style quite right. Looking at a grid of my past outfits, I recognize patterns and colors and silhouettes that work really well, and I just don't see some of these items fitting in. I want so badly to purge them but keep not doing it. It's hard to pin down exactly what's stopping me.

Some of it is sentimentality — remembering wearing certain shirts, remembering who I was when I wore them, where I was. But the clothes don't own me, and I shouldn't feel beholden to them. I want to badly to lean into the minimalist mindset, to acknowledge a thing that has served me while letting it go. 

Some of it is akin to the sunk-cost theory, the idea that we put a certain amount of energy or money into something and we haven't gotten all the use out of it yet, so we need to hold on to it. It applies to the clothes that are in great condition that just don't fit my color palette anymore. I feel like I should hold on to those things because they are still useful. But when I put on the salmon pink shirt and take it off again for the tenth time, is that a sign that I need to cut my losses?

I look for alternatives to outright purging — can I dye these items? Sew them into something else? Workarounds like these can be a lot of effort and must be weighed carefully.

There's a bag in my closet of clothes waiting to be mended or altered into use again. I got through a couple maintenance related sewing fixes last week, but if I'm being honest... when will I really have the time or take the time to dye a bunch of clothes? Or to make that dress with the too-small armholes into the skirt? I have plenty of items in my closet that don't require these steps to be useful to me, so maybe it's time to move on from the others that require more coddling.

I envy the people who put their entire lives in a car to move across the country. I'm so not there. I have a dream of taking all the clothes that don't get worn, all the knick knacks (even the sentimental ones), all the books we'll never read again and all the dumb stuff that accumulates that I keep around because I might need it, putting it all in a giant box and moving it out of our house, somewhere else. What will be left is only what sustains us. 

I think a big reason it's not as easy to do this as I'd like is fear. Fear that maybe, ten or twenty or thirty years from now, I'll wish I had my grandma's old PJs that currently live in a rubbermaid in the attic. But I haven't seen them in years. I kept them when she died because it felt better than letting them go. I remember my grandpa put all of her things, all of them, in one room. It was like a shrine. We picked through, picked things to save. We didn't want to let it all go.

Today, if I was packing my whole life up to fit in a car, I wouldn't take them. Why do I fear not having them? They're not important, those things. Things. I want to come to an inner peace where I let everything like that go. If I can wrap my mind around letting go of the bigger things, then maybe the little things like the salmon colored shirt won't trip me up like they do.

Do you struggle with things? I don't want to live a completely spartan Minimalist with a capital M life, but I don't want the weight of all the junk either. I want just what I need. Just enough to be comfortable and be me.