Fitting together

The parts that make the whole deserve care too.

Woof, today has been a whirlwind. We had two separate contractors over this morning to give an estimate on a few home remodeling projects, then I headed to the suburbs to direct a photo shoot, but first I had to stop at the office to pick up a haze machine (benefit of working at a theater?) and then go and buy a butcher block from a weird Craigslist dude.

After the shoot I drove back downtown and dropped the hazer at the office, then sat in traffic another thirty minutes so I could stash the butcher block at my West End studio. And then finally came home. And then cleaned. 

I got a lot packed in today and the pieces actually all fit together really well. Even the surprise road work in Marietta wasn't too stressful because I'd planned just enough overage into my schedule to make up for it. I'm pretty please with how it all played out. But I'm exhausted. Ready for Friday! 

The shoot today was for some show art I am working on for the upcoming season at the theater. I got to work with our go-to photographer and an incredible Atlanta actress, and the results were magical. The idea for the direction today was a moonlit portrait, and as tends to happen when I'm directing a shoot, I had to stand in for our actual subject while the photographer tweaked lighting. So you get these goofy one-off test photos. I kind of like collecting them for my personal archive because these photoshoots are one of my favorite parts of my day job.

Since I am trying to look at my wardrobe and what I wear daily at a more focused level, I decided to look at what I look like in this random photo NOT taken in a mirror.

In all honesty, what I notice first are kind of negative — that I never know how to stand and look kind of awkward, folding my hands weird on the table in front of me. And that I feel like this sweater does not do me any favors in this context, my shoulders just slope infinitely is what it's looking like.

Like, it looks fine here. I'm probably being overly critical.

Like, it looks fine here. I'm probably being overly critical.

In my head, and in a lot of my outfit of the day photos like this one, I think the sweater looks fine. In my head this sweater has more drape and shape, but seeing it on the photoshoot today makes it look a little dumpy. Maybe I pose more purposefully in outfit of the day photos, whereas here I'm standing like I normally do? But then that doesn't bode well for how I present normally... 

I wonder if I need to take in the forearms a little to make them a little tighter, more definition? But I do push up the sleeves sometimes, and that would be difficult if they were tighter. Maybe shoulder pads need to come back sooner rather than later, what do you think? I have another top I got from my mom that has shoulder pads built in, and I kiiiind of like it... but anyway

I do like the drop shoulder and open front, but it also feels like the cut of the collar edges are a little diminutive next to the baggy other parts of the sweater. Would a folded over lapel suit the sweater better? I have a short camel cardigan like that, with a folded shawl collar, and it's very modern but also a little structured while still being soft. Maybe at least a wider hem would help. Like what about a black contrast velvet trim around the open front edges? I'm going to explore if I can make this one work better for me.

Other pluses of this sweater are it's warm and it is easy to throw on because it goes with most things. Other minuses are it pills like an ugly monster and the elbows are a little worn. I hope taking a closer look at the way this sweater works in the real world will help me evaluate what to do about it in the long term.

And a side note on the outfit, everything I'm wearing here is from a faster fashion brand. Most of the items are over two years old but still fit my personal style well. In the past year, I've made an effort to discontinue shopping from faster fashion brands like Gap, Madewell, and J. Crew, for instance (all pictured here).

But the garments I already owned from those places aren't automatically trash — so while I may not make any new purchases from a brand unless they check a few extra sustainability or ethical production boxes, I still take stewardship of what I already have, even if it isn't so-called slow fashion.

In this way, we can minimize our negative impact on the world while respecting the materials and resources that have already been spent.